1, 3 and 5...

I still can't believe I have a 1 year old, a 3 year old and a 5 year old! Eek!

I tried to get a decent picture of all 3 tonight. It is HARD. And my photographer friend, Jamie is taking family pictures of us in a few weeks. I was seriously thinking as I was taking these, "ugh...Jamie is not going to have fun taking our pictures!" Ha. Good luck, Jamie! :)

Wesley LOOOOOVES Cason. It is totally cute! And Tate LOOOOOVES Cason. It is totally cute! However, Wesley and Tate don't really love each other...yet. Well, I am praying someday they do!

Okay, so they do have their moments when they are loving...

(Cason's deer in the headlights look is cracking me up here!)

And I think Wesley loves Tate a little bit more than Tate loves Wesley!

I know that the love will grow as the kids grow. I know that once we're in a routine and together all the time, things will start to get better...eventually. I knew that taking this on would be hard...I think I hoped that it would be easier than I expected. It hasn't been. However, I don't think it's been harder than I expected either. I do feel guilt though...I feel bad for Tate. I know this is all a lot for him and I never want him for even a moment to think that we love him less or have less time for him. What the hardest thing about this all is that I am feeling pulled in several different directions. The boys are dealing with it better than I expected though...even Tate!

We love these 3 boys and pray that they will grow to love each other more and more with every day!